Apologies.

This week thanks to the full moon, PMS and my general bitchy attitude towards life, I pissed a bunch of people off. That happens in life, right? Sometimes you fuck up, you apologize and life goes on.

When did it become a thing for people to not accept your apologies. Like, I'm a shitty apologizer. I really am. I know this. Most of my friends and family know this. I'm terrible at at admitting I'm wrong and even when I can admit it, I have trouble actually physically saying "I'm sorry".

But when I do say it, why is it always met with indifference or disbelief in my sincerity? When my friends and family fuck up and then apologize, I tend to accept it and if I'm still pissed, I try to talk it out. I don't blow up or ignore them or treat them like their apology couldn't mean any less to me. That's hurtful and makes me kind of feel not sorry anymore.

Why does an apology have to further punishment? Admitting you're wrong and actively trying to correct it should be punishment enough, right? No one likes to admit they've fucked up.

So next time someone fucks up and all you want to do is blow off their apology, think about how hard it is to apologize. Even if someone is bad at it, at least they had the balls to admit their error.

Did I mention the PMS?